| Friday, February 20, 2004 |
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This post is not meant to force people to feel obligated to respond. It is an observation about myself. I am feeling discouraged today and I feel like rambling.
"No new is good news" doesn't apply here. I feel worse hearing nothing. I can't even get an encouraging rejection. I go absolutely crazy when I don't hear anything. I would rather here anything than nothing.
I need other people to tell me what I've done is good to feel validated. Even if think something I've done is good, I don't really think it is until someone else says it is. I still don't always believe it then. There just saying that, they don't really mean it. It is only one person, no one else feels that way. I know this is another way of beating up on myself but the problem is I don't know how to stop it.
I have always been this way. I think it is low self confidence. I am working on this and making improvements, but in some ways it is especially hard to do. When you are trying to get yourself noticed in the writing and art business. You need for people to like what you have written and drawn. You need the approval of others to succeed.
It is good for me to say, "It doesn't matter what everyone else thinks. I like my work, I think it is good. I don't care what anyone else thinks," but it does matter because to succeed other people have to like what I have done. So how do I win here. |
posted by Kelly @ 2/20/2004 01:21:00 PM   |
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